So of course, after a consecutive 3 day happiness streak (ever since I started my blog) and feeling like nothing could bring me down… boom! A downer hits me like a tsunami wave, taking down all my happiness energy with it. In an instant. WTH? I really hate it, when life presents you with little gifts like this. Thanks life, but no thanks. The downer was merely a negative comment brought up by someone close about the whole idea of blogging. Ok, so I was probably very defensive about the one thing that’s made me so outrageously happy in the last few days, but whatever. Of course there’s an entire world out there that will be able to read anything I post. That doesn’t mean it’s too much information for the world to see. It’s just what I want and don’t mind them seeing. Encyclopedias, biographies, magazines, books, those are loaded with people’s super detailed lives. Heck, any public figure – from Hollywood, to people in politics, to writers, etc. has much more nitty gritty stuff out there about their lives. I’m just a housewife looking for a literary outlet for creativity, thoughts and ramblings. Please. Even if it’s not your main goal, it’s clearly in the back of your mind “someone out there will be reading this, and who knows maybe they’ll even comment… how exciting!” Uhgg… it took me a while to regain normalcy, and the catalyst which led to the road back was Nico accidentally head bumping me so hard on my nose it made me cry. (Thanks my little Prince, Mommy needed that.) The whole incident got me thinking about how ‘negative influences’ (people, situations, etc.) can just put a big damper on a happy mood. It’s incredible the things that can make or break a day. I could only wish to be in happy mode all the time, but reality is things will pop up that will challenge your happiness. So, how can one avoid being sucked into to the dark side? That’s food for thought… and it got me back to thinking I should blog about this. Happy mode re-gained. Check.
Thinking more into it, I pinpointed another moment that jeopardized the continuance of my happy mood a couple days ago. A (different) close person called me on the phone while I was cleaning. When I saw the ID on the phone I thought it was strange that they’d be calling at that hour. So I picked up, and first thing that I’m greeted with is, “Hi. I was just calling to say hi. I’m really depressed.” Ok, I don’t think there are many worst opening lines than that. Starting a conversation on a super negative. Oh boy. I already knew it was going to be a painful-to-bear with conversation. So there I was thinking, “Oh but I’m so happy, I don’t want to hear depressive stuff (likely just the same usual stuff that makes this person so depressed).”
The conversation started off as expected, took turns for the worst, hiked at some point where this person took their ill feelings as a weapon to talk down about other people that had nothing to do with their source of depression, at which point I had to halt the one-man conversation. I just could not take the hiking anymore. It was draining and yes, depressive, and frankly not something I was interested in. I was in my happy zone. Before I knew it, I was in the middle of the battlefield about to be shot down because apparently if “it hurt me so much to hear the reality of things, then I just needed to learn how to deal with it.” As if this person turned the tables on me. What?? I ran in the opposite direction, saying calmly, “I think it’s a good idea for you to leave the house, and not so good for us to talk in your altered mood. Remember you called me. We’ll talk later, take care.” Sometimes, you just have to cut to the chase and disconnect. Somehow… I still kept my cool, and happy mood. How did I do it? Think happy thoughts… **If you let them bring you down, they will.**
